Touch me not

One normally spots a sensitive person based on the emotions let out, deeming them as weak individuals. However, many of the times, it turns out that the strongest ones’ on the outside, are the weakest ones’ on the inside. These are in fact the highly sensitive people who appear to be emotionally detached.

They are the ones’ who will easily get close to people yet disallow themselves to be emotionally attached to them. It is not that they do not have emotions; their emotions are simply bottled up, with their senses being numbed.

They will pretend like they are okay even when they might be falling apart on the inside. This is to prevent appearing as weak since emotional people are normally seen in that light. On the contrary though, those that are not afraid to make their feelings evident are the ones that are actually strong.

Highly sensitive people are cautious with who they decide to open up to. People would have to repeatedly ask them to let them know what they are feeling as they would never let it out no matter how close the other might be to them. This gets other people thinking that they do not mean much to them since they are not comfortable in opening up.

Words that they might say might be deemed as harsh due to their “I don’t really care,” behaviour. Your grandfather passed away? Okay, so what? Life is a constant process of dying anyway.

The actual conflict, however, begins only when emotions are provoked in them and they start to surface.

They fear being in relationships, especially romantic ones. It is tough to get their attention and jump over the walls that they have built around them. They are not playing hard to get, but instead, they are just protecting themselves by treating others as being disposable.

Once in a blue moon though, when someone does manage to break down the impassable walls, they would end up sabotaging it. They have a tendency to push people away, cutting off ties, for no apparent reason, by trying to find faults in the relationship when these faults could instead simply be mended. This happens when they come to a realization that they have fallen deeply, with their emotions starting to take control over their acts.

They feel insecure and start over-thinking with regards to what would happen if they fall deeper for someone or if the relationship ends? They would be shattered and go back to experiencing emotions which might surface and hence being “weak”, getting back to the point where they first started off from.

Having a heart breaking experience, all the more they would regret breaking their walls down, with them being more cautious as of who they allow to let in their lives on an emotional level the next time round.

When they finally do show their feelings, it tends to be extreme. This could happen on any random day, whether with or without being intoxicated, although of course the latter just makes it worse. When this happens, they appear as needy and/or aggressive. They fall into a whirlpool of feelings that are so intense; people get taken aback while they themselves fear they may never come out of it.